So i. Hope you have already know that i am having my kitchen fixed by reading my other post from this morning…what ever on my mind! If so fabulous if not, why not? Lol its all okay i will give you a recap its not a problem at all.

SOOO…for the pasted 13 days i have been without and kitchen or a living room as the kitchen is in the living room…everything from the cooker to tins and food all over the place, its a nightmare of crazy mess.

So i have been making foods in the air fryer and Microwave. BUT i have to say i am now getting bored. Yeah i have been eating a lot of sandwiches now that i have managed to cover the year on gluten-free…which was advised by my doctor but as its not done anything for my over all health i have gone back to a normal diet. Yay me…bread bread bread…you really do start to really understand the quality of bread bands when you have had to struggle with a gluten free one. Anyway getting off point…as much as i have enjoyed the sandwich marathon…(with some amazing ones to boot) i am now getting bored of wraps!!! Never would i have believed that statement…a few months back while still moaning about the wraps I didn’t like on the GF diet.

I have recipes to share with you in the up coming months and with my ADHD it might take more just that about of time to post them…but they are well nice and i do hope when i do get my over size butt in gear that you will at least try them.

NOW back to the actually topic. My OVEN!!! Yes i miss it like you wouldn’t believe…pasta, cooking some rice or even that fresh steamed veg with boiled potato’s….or something roasted for half its life so that the meat falls off the bone…(sorry VEGAN and VEGETARIAN friends)

When i think of the meals i can have right now…not interested at all…but when i think of just a few of the options i could have if i had my oven in its working order and a kitchen to boot…i am excited and over whelmed with hunger…

Have i learnt something, yeah in the last two weeks i have, my diet overall is unhealthy and I don’t want my diet to stay like this…there is one thing that sticks in my mind and that is don’t take anything for granted because it can change within a second…dramatic i know!

ITs not just the oven part of the machine that i miss…its the hops…my daughter and i do like our cooked salads with quinoa, lentils and pasta and of course rice. Then there are the stir fry’s, steamed veg and boiled potatoes….oh i find this too hard….but my kitchen is getting there and i will post a post on that sub next sometime next week once the painting has been done and the builders say its complete…I don’t have a before picture of it as it was in a really damaged state, but i do have a picture of it before it got too damaged…so we will have to compare…thats os easy as there is now way you are gonna like the old one…believe me the new one is so much better…I think i am in love!

Tag me in your blog if you have any recipes that might make me feel i am actually eating a meal and not a snack!

I do not know why i can not keep up with a routine, yes i already know i have ADHD and yes that might be the reason, but oh my lord its so hard to explain why i hate the fact that i cant keep a normal routine going.

So years ago, and i am saying well over 10 years ago, i was very neat and tidy and got everything done when i needed to. Now a days not as chance, i have well to much stuff, stuff may i add that is rather useless really. I just keep it…without a reason.

Okay okay maybe with some reason…like well someone else might want it, or i cant throw it away as thats just damaging to the planet and so on…but really if anything its messing with my head. I mean it i had a moment this morning because my yard/garden hasn’t be able to be used in over 10 years and its now become a dumping ground for all my broken and unwanted items that do need to go to the tip.

So I ask why did i have a moment this morning about my garden/yard that I haven’t used for so many years…because i am sick of not being able to use it. You see my yard/garden isn’t private. It’s meant to be but its just so open plan and its so crazy. I fear going in it and then i want to go in it. Yet for so long i have put off going in it….and now i cant use it unless i have the money to get rid of the things in it and then i can at least begin with all the ideas.

My ideas for my yard/garden…well now thats exciting…The yard/garden is set into two parts. The lower part which is a court yard with a well in front with four steps going to the top part, which is classed as the garden as this actually has some growth. The top part has a silly very over large path in the centre of the garden and this path goes to the back gate. This garden part is on a slope and dips down again from the top to the right towards the gate. In my option the garden was just thrown together and then the path was put there to show the way to the steps, which is most likely the only straight thing in the damn garden…all but wood that i have added to the dumping ground which in turn will end up going to the tip…

Anyway i have to clean up my mess as my plan for the lower area is a rabbit corner, so that my children and i can have a space to go and share with our bunnies. I already have garden furniture as once upon a time there were a few times i tried to enjoy having a garden worth using, but i have some issues with my neighbours that took those ideas out of my head. So again why is it different now. Well my rabbits live in the house and soon they wont be able to as i am getting my kitchen fixed and this would leave any space for my bunnies. So i want to be able to make a lovely space for them so that can be safe, and have some where to run freely, with supervision of course.

To even start this rabbit corner i need cash a lot of it, i need to get rid of all the crap thats in the yard and thats almost full, then there is a few bits and pieces that need to go from the top part too, and then after spending money on someone to collect my stuff to take to the tip. I would then have to wait for a few more months to have enough money to build the yard part into the rabbit corner…it would need two rabbits hutches and then the surrounding area blocked off so that the bunnies didn’t get out when they were out and about in the yard. Money money money….The top part would most like be the last thing to be done and again money is needed. To make sure that the garden was actually as private as i need it to be i would need a wooden fence on the right hand side of top part. On top of the stairs were fences to help make sure no one fell from the top with is a good four foot high. These where badly damaged and need replacing, i took them off as they were a hazard and my housing wont replace them. So more money involved. These would need to be done to give extra privacy.

Then finally i would be able to plant some needed trees, i love trees i am a much plant lover and trees are my favourite. I would try to find ones that are fast growing and big ones too, i would get my daughter an apple tree as she has always wanted one in the garden so that would most likely be fun to have. I would try to see if i could get someone out to break that damn path that i really hate so much and I wouldn’t have a path, in fact i would cover the left over concrete with lovely soil and leave with lots of grass seeds on….a no path garden seems like an idea lol.

I would plant trees all around the top part, and i would hide away from all that would do me any harm. My secret garden to whom only my family and i could see…but its not is it…and i know why i was upset because its a dream and a fantasy.

It could happen, it might happen…but it would take a dream and a wish for it to even become half of all that…but yet i am willing to try to at least get it half way.

So lockdown take 2

ITS not like we don’t know what we are doing…or do we?

It’s this or that. I am glad that I am still able to do avon, In which a lot of changed have been made to make sure that MY customers that is,

I am at the moment organising my kitchen and god damn it! It really needed doing. I cant believe how many lids I have kept where no tubs belong to. Never the less its almost done. Two cupboards down eight more to go.

Fedora had a great birthday, but she seems to think that I am gonna tidy up her damn mess…bar matey i have far more important and more enjoyable things to do that do your bedroom or pick up your damn toys…saying that If she leaves it long enough i will have no choice as the hoovering is needed. However if this is the case she will lose what toys to the toy jail and then…bye bye until she can make me believe that she will tidy them up again.

Anyway better get tea going as is nearly 4.30pm and i haven’t even started…don’t even know what we are having…

Speak soon

Shoaba

Without sounding weird or crazy, I feel that life is so much faster when one is busy.

I sit here after spending about an hour on my avon paperwork and then realise that I have another 160 brochures still to put together before Monday morning…however I have a routine to do 20 brochures to do in the morning and the same in the evening throughout the weekend. Meaning I should get things done. Avon isn’t all about orders…there is a lot of work involved.

Then there is the fact that I am still trying to understand my diet/lifestyle. Before the lockdown I was finally just employed and I was so looking forward to the coming year. Not only that but I was on the challenge. Which was a diet/lifestyle of grain, sugar and dairy free…I lost three stone on it…but gain it all back and more in the damn lockdown…honest that’s the reason…;p

ANYWAY LIFE seemed to be going my way, for once. But no. LOCKDOWN…I don’t normally swear but I am sure people are with me on this…the lockdown was a fucking mental torture.

I have mental health issue along with physical but I manage…more so now then ever but staying in and losing my new job because of childcare really took the biscuit.

SO I signed up, to body shop so that I could sell it and get some money…extra. But it fell through no one on my facebook page wanted to pay the prices. Even if the products spoke for them selves people just wasn’t having any of it. Yes I sold some products but Most of my sales come from my own want for the products. IT WAS a fail.

Never mind that, I then signed up to avon, it cost me £5 to do so. My mum been doing avon for so many years I have lost count of how many. But she got me started and I found that I didn’t need to buy the products to test them like I had to with the body shop. In fact the set up was as easy as 1,2,3. In fact it was that easy that within the first two weeks I had made my first £250+ sales…more then I had with Body shop.

That was July, In August I managed to get £600+ sales, In September I managed to get £700+, In October I wanted to see if I could relax slightly which isn’t really necessary with avon as you do what hours that suit you. But in August , September I worked Monday, Wednesday and Friday…not to managed most of the evenings. LEAVING the weekends for me and my family. But in October I decided to have a week off…I wasn’t too well so in stead of stressing more I relaxed and got better…go me. But it made me feel like I was catching up. Which I was. However i didn’t miss a street or house or lose custom. Yet i only managed to get £500+ sales. So i have now decided that in November i am going to work. Monday, Wednesday and Friday, morning and afternoons…which i was doing in August and September where i was only doing mornings in October….YOU have to put in the effort to receive the orders. It is not just sitting on your arse.

Which until recently I thought it was…go figure.

So anyway busy life. Not only have i been studying my lifestyle changes, doing my avon and looking after my daughter and keeping the house in order…i also had kittens!!! No i mean physically…not me…but my two female cats…of course they weren’t male lol.

THE FIRST litter came on Monday the 24th of august 2020…and there was three boys and one girls. These became Sméagol, Gandalf the grey/Tiddles, trigger/tigger and Freda

THE SECOND litter came on Tuesday the 22rd of September 2020…and there was three boys and one girl. These became James, Aragon/Paragon, Kristoff and Mabel.

Looking after these beauts has been my best work ever and i have loved every minute, sad times on homing them and tomorrow i am going to say goodbye to my little darlings of nine weeks old. Freda and triggure, as they are going to their new homes then…boohoo. But to be fair i knew I wasn’t able to keep all of them…and being me i have been able to keep three…i do believe you have to have more then 10 cats to be classed as a mad cat lady lol. But they are my fur babies and i am gonna miss them.

Oh and its my daughters birthday on Saturday…so busy life makes things go quicker, The lockdown was so slow I almost believed time had stopped. BUT the last few month have gone passed so quickly I didn’t see the months pass by…and i am loving it. Let’s hope that this year ends where the cv19 is also gone…for good and that we can get back on track one way or another. I have not sat here for over an hour typing away like its the best thing after slice bread…got to get my arse moving……so much to be done and not that much time to do it in…lets hope my daughter has cleaning her room…i doubt it.

Speak soon darlings

Shoaba x

I seem to get more stressed in the morning then I do more at any other time in the day. Planning the day so that everything is ready is done the night before and it seems this works better for me, but there are times when I forget to do something and then I panic in the morning because that one things hasn’t been done…I am no perfectionist but I do like order…things need to go in order 1,2,3. You would put your shoes on and then your socks now would you? Or put the milk in the tea without the tea bag…I like to make things as easy as possible.

ON Monday it wasn’t smooth at all. I tried to type a post about that but I got so0o0o0o0o0o0 busy on Monday that I just didn’t do it…its sat there in my drafts waiting for me to finish it…and I will…just not yet…

Today though I am sitting here just before school run with my daughter on my other half of our sofa, she’s dressed and fed ready to go to school waiting frozen while I sit here in pleasure writing this to you. I have incense on and I am relaxed calm and ready for the day of collection avon brochures and coming home to do paper works and hopefully processing some orders as I go. Then I reset the brochures and go and drop then off at new houses and I then come back home, I might have time for a seeking cup of tea before I go and get fedora from school at 3pm.

I also have to do the normal house hold duties too, like cleaning…my hoover hasn’t worked well in the last month and I have finally managed to save up the £100 I needed to get another…I would like to get the hoover from Tesco in which is a Henry…I would love that lol. ITS ONLY £99. I hope I can get it…

Kitchen gets done round the clock, its only ever the dishes or cloths that put the kitchen to shame but even then it’s minimal. The living room is more crazy really as I always forget to do the washing, putting the washing away is a little thing I just ignore. The clean washing gets dumped on my chair and left….until I Finlay get the means to actually sort it.

The upstairs is not much fun, Fedora whom is 7 on the 31st of October has a very large bedroom, in fact her dad and I had wanted to spilt it in half and she would still a have too much space, never the less its a mess and too messy for my liking and yes you can imagine the tantrums I get when I ask her to tidy it…but I do have my way in the end…mum knows best…she hate me saying it,

MY BEDROOM, is THE dumping ground, I haven’t slept in my bedroom for almost 6 months, my bed broke almost a year ago and I moved in to fedoras room to see if the size would make it easier for her to keep it tidy…nope it was even worse…so I moved everything back. My bedroom then just wasn’t the same. I soon realised that fedora had been drawing on the walls and pulled the wall paper and that made me dislike the room even more…so now its just a dumping ground for everything I do not need or want to look at….

The bathroom is a the moment go cat litter trays in and can be a little over whelming, but not because I don’t clean it just because I have so much stuff I need to put away in there. Such a small white room really should be neat.

MY stairs have no carpet because my cats decided it was their best interest to rip the carpet to the point that we could trip over it…so up it came. I had planned to paint the stairs and make it all pretty but …I start something but never get to seem to finish anything…

Oh dear one minute left…anyway on we must get…The day started three hours ago and I am no nearer the finish line…but on we get and on we go…speak soon

Trying to sit down and write is difficult at the best of times. I suppose I just need to organise my work load so that I can actually do what I love to do…write. ITS MY PASS TIME. I just really need to make a time in the day that I can write and only write…does it seem that times flys by when you are busy, Interesting enough I love being busy and finding time to enjoy every part of my life…even my job and my family and just being me…life has changed and for the better too.

Time isn’t limited, its what we do with the time that is given to us…