Day 2 part 2

SO today I have been cooking a little bit more than I did yesterday.

I had some fresh beetroots and I thought I could make something out of those because I already like beetroot as they are so SWEET…SO…let’s TRY.

I chopped them up and put them in an oven dish with some olive oil chilli powder lazy chillies and a bit of salt. stirred it well and put it in an oven at 180 degrees

I then go about my way and then realise I have my friend coming over with her lovely children so I decided to get some potato out of the fridge as well. I then made some potato bites which are pretty simple they are just potato chopped roughly thrown in an oven dish with olive oil salt and then put in the oven with the beetroots both of those dishes were in two different cooking dishes I didn’t want to contaminate the children’s potatoes with the Spice from the beetroot which turn out to be lucky because the beetroot actually turned out very spicy

I can take my spicy but that was slightly too spicy I gave that a 9 out of 10 however the potatoes were at 10 out of 10 because everyone enjoyed those and I had to make a double batch go figure

Then for my tea I didn’t really eat many of the potatoes like the others did. So I had mine with two fried eggs.

I found that normally I would have tomato sauce with this dish so I decided to quickly make my own and this is where I’m getting at

I have found out today that arrowroot is can be an alternative to cornstarch luckily for me a few months back when I was on keto I went looking for an alternative route to cornstarch however I didn’t actually know what I was buying until now so by chance I have it

I had a spoonful in a little packet in my cupboard I tried it tonight and I looked it up on the internet just to make sure and it is definitely grain free and have no influence whatsoever on sugar so fabulous.

I will probably mention you tomorrow about the butternut squash cloud bread that I made earlier today it’s still in the oven I have tried to cook it in the frying pan but it was Just a disaster. so I put it in the oven and I’m hoping that they will become little slices of Heaven in the morning for me for breakfast they are very sweet and I’m thinking of having them with a bit of banana and honey think that might start my day off quite well.

I am going to clean my kitchen and settle down for the night. Day 2 is almost over… Day three is on its way

This morning was acceptable to some degree however I found it quite difficult not Having a normal milky coffee

I Haven’t had breakfast but managed a peppermint green tea.
I am going to go into the kitchen and make something to eat quickly but I really generally don’t know

I’m actually more in ticed to make some potato bites and I’ve also got some beetroots that I could crop up and cook in the oven which is quite nice cos they’re quite sweet so might go down nicely.

Hoping to have something with eggs tonight just because I like the idea of having a runny yolk with something or other we will see

I know I still have my cauliflower Soup from yesterday with bacon to eat x

I do have the butternut squash idea that I had yesterday and that may seem to go down quite happily with my kids x

But although today seems to be going quicker I am in a bit of a slow mo and I’m going to go and sort things out so I can do more research and get things processed

Day 2 is definitely flying by

Day 1

has been enjoyable and different and I do believe I’ve been thinking outside the box with certain things

breakfast with simple… a coffee, banana and apple

for lunch I had quinoa with tuna and other veg

then for my dinner I had cauliflower soup crispy bacon

I had pieces of fruit and some nuts throughout the day and I drink plenty of water and herbal teas

2020 January 00. 42 a.m.

The beginning

It’s been years since I can remember ever really enjoying the New Year Eve. Until now they were bleak and normal and sometimes horrible.

I find it in my heart that I do not fear what is to come. But I feel joy and happiness and most importantly excitement for this year.

I have made a promise to myself to improve myself One Way or Another.

In September I was on a keto diet to improve my overall health and to lose weight, however because of hypertension I was unable to stay on keto for any longer.

I was very emotional about this because I feared it was my only option to lose weight.

I struggled for a while after and I started eating and binging even more.

Some times something horrible can make an impact on other people’s lives and their choices. Sadly my brother passed away in September and this came with diffcult emotions.

October came and saying goodbye to my brother Leonard was very hard but I promised myself that I would improve my overall health.

So I decided that I would find a different way to lose my weight. By mistake I came upon a link on the internet about gluten free products as this was going to be my next step, however something caught my eye.
Grain free… oh my! yes! that sounds just crazy enough for me to give it a go.
so I did a week of research and another week for a test run which actually made me think outside the box a little. however it wasn’t hard enough I found I was eating a lot of cheese with anything and everything.

so I decided to try dairy-free so again a week of research and the week for the test run

November came quick and I knew Christmas soon after was coming and I do like my deluxe Christmas with all the trimmings.

The dairy free trail run was harder than I thought it would be but I ate mostly bread and other high grain carbohydrates. I didn’t really achieve anything other then I’ve added few extra pounds around my waist.

So i decided out of the blue that next year I would go on a diet that’s free from… grains dairy and why the hell not sugar as well.
I would do this all at once but for how long I asked myself.

A WEEK … would be hard but manageable.
A MONTH… yeah that’s agreeable I could manage that too I SUPPOSE.

BUT whats the point of doing a week what’s the point of doing a month… No… I’m going to do it for 365 days

a WHOLE year grain-free dairy-free and sugar-free

I didn’t realise that this year is a leap year which means I have to add an extra day on top of the already 365 days… What’s an extra day…!

Now to give this meaning… I need a name… I’m not calling this a diet… Even thou I know it is.

I’m not calling it a lifestyle change either because I don’t want to say I am going on it forever… who knows I might stay on it next year or I might decide to pick and choose what I decide to do at that time

No this is called THE CHALLENGE because to me it is just that

Day 01…has just begun

We are lucky. I say this very lightly as its not to easy. But my life for the last few months have been fun. Exciting. Misable and trouble not to mention stressful. But also enlighing. I have learnt a few hard lessons. Cried a river of tears and shook with anger.

But when u have tried to make something work… Something that you really want and it’s just out of reach.

We are lucky… Because I can just turn back and try a different way to live.

I want this and I want that… But what my daughter needs are far greater. I missed this reason. I messed her about confused her more and unsettled her.

I am not the most mature adult. I make more mistakes then a normal adult and I get frowned apon. I try to what’s best but it turns out wrong.

My lesson for the last three months is consider the choices u do have… Take a breather and think deep at ur wants and compare them to ur needs… We have choices and we can choose the path right for us… If we listen to reason

We all have our pains and stresses of life. And managing them can really lay on the heart and mind…and speacially the soul. Pressess like a ton of weight.

We can achieve all most anytjing as long as we take it one step at a time. A baby cant run befores its learnt how to balance. The same is said about almost all life experiences.

Losing weight

Quitting overeating

Learning new healthier habbits

And so on.

Set targets and goals and take them one step at a time

I call upon my ancestors. To guide me to what is right

To help me have the strength and wisdom to help and encourage my daughter

To aid me in the wisom of what to do at hard times and how to manage calmly and honestly to my own values

Hear now my prayer for i need u all by my side

So mote it be

I hear a voice

Pleasing to my ears

I smile with a warm feeling of safety

I look up

and see the outline of the moon

What must be done

I asked

How do i live like this

How can i manage in this fog

The voice was calming and sweet

You can’t

It said

You have to change ur life

By chooses a different path

Stones appeared

all around me

The voice said

These are path stones

One you must choose

And your life with it will change

I stand in a field.

With no grass on the ground.

Just soil.

I look

I am surrounded by fog.

I can not see beyond this fog…

I am lost

Its not dark but yet scarey

Its not bright but its gloomy

I am in fear of my own shadow

Where do i go

Where do i turn

I scream but no sound is heard

I am lost in a world of fog.

I fall to the harded ground

I cant give up

I have to stand up

I have to be strong

I must change my life

I stand

I look around

I step one step farward and the fog follows me

I look a head and there on the ground was these very beautyful path stones

I choose to stand on the symbol i liked the look of

It turned sliver and the rest went blank

I had found my path

I choose another and another

The fog was lifting

The light was exciting

I felt fresh air

I became motivated

Again the more path stones i choose the more i felt free

Where has it gone? So much i need to do and yet….not getting it done.

There are a few reason why i may not be as motibated as i should or could be.

No1 Dehydration

No2 malnourished

No3 lack of self-esteem

Oh and sleep for No4.

We do what we have to do. Take kids to school. Fed them. Clean them and up after them….but thinking about ur self after that…well its not to smart

Think about you first. No1 is your own lifes pattern. With out ur patteren being correct then u cant kerps others patterens correct either.